several lifetimes of search, purification, service, and self-sacrifice,
some persons have the good fortune to meet and get connected with a
God-realized Master. Through their several lifetimes of close connection
with the one who has now become a Perfect Master, and through their
love and service for this Master, they enter into his Circle. Those who
have entered into the Circle of a Master are souls who, through their
efforts, have acquired the eligibility for God-realization. When the
exact moment for Realization arrives, they attain it through the grace
of the Master.
Meher Baba, Discourses, The Circle, pg 288
October 2011 Vol. 4, Issue 6
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met Eruch, and thousands loved Eruch. We thought he knew us, liked us,
approved of us and enjoyed our company. After a visit to Meherazad
pilgrims would load onto the bus and wave good-byes to the Mandali and
residents who were standing there in the gravel driveway. Eruch was
often there with them. As the bus pulled out, pilgrims in the bus would
watch the Mandali recede through the rear window of the bus, their arms
and hands raised in salute, with an unmistakable joy and devotion
pouring out from them.
often led the discussions or talks in Mandali Hall for the pilgrims.
For several hours a day on visitor days he would find his place in the
hall and interrogate the pilgrims, in a nice way. Where did you come
from? What drew you to come? How did you hear about Meher Baba? And
similar questions. One American man in 1984 had come out of curiosity.
He was not a Baba lover but had been living in India for years. He was a
follower of Ram, the Avatar of the Ramayana. With this man, Eruch
enjoyed sharing stories about Ram and Sita and relating them to the life
story of Meher Baba. This is to say that each got his or her turn with
Eruch. And each got his full attention and may have been rewarded with a
story from his treasure trove of stories. He was a master storyteller
and could shape his repertoire as he pleased.
at the end of the session Aloba would appear with a bell or something
crying "Time for tea," and we would gather on the veranda with an
assortment of Mandali and chat. It was amazing. I remember sitting with
Rano Gayley quietly one day enjoying tea. That was quite a while back.
was a certain symmetry in Eruch's life. He was called to serve Baba at
age 21 with whom he lived, serving Him for approximately 30 years. Then
for another 30 years or so he lived and served Baba's lost generation,
us. I don't wonder which 30 years he enjoyed the most. But he did put up
with us cheerfully.
people have stories about their moments and encounters with the Mandali
and with Eruch. A few were kind enough to share them here so that we
can revive the memories.
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Bill Gannett's Story
Passing time in Mandali
Hall was perhaps the most rewarding single activity of my life. There
are so many priceless memories of, especially, Eruch and Mani serving as
mirrors of Baba's presence.
absolutely the most impressive man I've ever met. He had exceptional
qualities: strength of body and mind, a disarming intelligence and
friendliness, robust patience, tremendous concentration, a superb
storyteller, an astonishing memory, a razor sharp student of human
nature-a true empiricist, a great sense of humor-and more besides, all
in devoted service to his Master and Companion.
It was easy to be impressed by Eruch and over impressed. One day,
after many hours in Mandali Hall, as we were leaving and as I was about
to give him a hug goodbye for the day, I collapsed into the thought of
his exceptional singularity-and worshiped him, so to speak. He drew back
instantly, and looked at me quizzically. I mumbled something as the
moment dissolved in the blinding awareness of his adamantine humility.
Ed Van Buskirk's Story
In 1976, Eruch was
taking a group of us to the Ellora Caves and Khuldabad via the Imampur
mosque, which was the last stop in the New Life. As we got in the van
to depart, the front windows were open and a big cloud of dust came into
the van. I asked Eruch if he wouldn't like his window closed. He
replied, "No" then added, "We have become so dusty, even the dust is
ashamed of us".
Noreen Graham's Story
I became interested in
spirituality when I was 18 years old, and I had studied and read certain
teachings. Also, I had studied classical ballet since I was a child, so
I was used to a disciplined training and to a controlled life that was
In 1990, I
traveled to Baba's home at Meherabad and Meherazad for the first time.
The bus took us all to Meherazad one day, and we unloaded and filed into
line to greet and be greeted by the Mandali. Everyone was so loving and
nice, hugging and smiling and chatting. It seemed just too sweet and
lovey-dovey to me, artificially sweet and not just quite right. I found a
place on the bench outside Mandali Hall and waited still surveying the
scene. Without introduction, Eruch came and sat next to me on the bench.
My discomfort must have registered on my face. He looked at the
gathering and without asking a thing said, "For myself, I like salt on
He had read my
mind. He also said that when Baba was alive the atmosphere around Baba
was not like the present scene. I appreciated and will always remember
how he took the time to reach me and soothe my misgivings in such a
direct and uncomplicated way.
Jim Wilson's Story
He Was Known For His Strength
In 1986, Jean and I
took our son and daughter to Meherabad where we found ourselves basking
in the light and love of the Mandali. I had often read and heard how
strong Eruch was, how he was matchless in his untiring service of his
Master, Meher Baba.
But upon meeting
him I was surprised how small he appeared. I was only 43 years old, six
foot tall, 190 pounds, and bulked up from years of hard carpentry work.
Eruch, on the other hand, was about 65 and living a life of speaking and
administering for His Beloved. His body had aged but I had this
sneaking desire to test his strength.
One day at
Meherazad, I happened to come face to face with Eruch on the porch
outside Mandali Hall. We looked at each other, he raised his two hands
palm forward to me, and I greeted him by interlocking my fingers with
his. He smiled at me then he stared into my eyes as he proceeded to bend
my hands back. I looked at him and resisted the best I could but was
unable to bend his wrists back the way he bent mine. I can't remember
exactly what I said, but I mumbled to him that he is quite strong for a
man of his age. He said to me that many Americans are so big and strong
and that Baba liked America's energy. We hugged, and he was approached
by other pilgrims.
I remember this very private moment with
Eruch even though it was a rather mundane and silly "man thing." But I
also cherish that moment as a Baba kiss. He let me see that serving the
Master requires a strength that only He can provide. Although it was a
physical strength, it was needed in His advent; a time when He travelled
the world at an exhausting pace and set the cables for the release of
His love and grace. Eruch was His slave, perfectly suited for the work
Baba expected of him. Like almost every person who met Eruch, I truly
felt happy in his presence. He was such a man.
Paul Williams' Story
My story related to Eruch took place in 1989. I want to be careful not to identify the person in this story.
There was a
pilgrim at Meherabad, relatively new to Baba and taken with Baba's
personality, affected by Baba's love to the point of being in kind of a
daze. One day in the middle of an intense volleyball game this person
walked across the volleyball court, and continued walking smack into a
tree, fell on the ground and ended up with a bloodied nose. I don't want
to call this person unbalanced, but this person was so intoxicated with
after that experience this person showed up at Meherazad (where Baba's
resident Mandali lived) on the bus with all the other pilgrims. When the
bus would arrive at Meherazad, it was common to get off the bus and be
greeted by various Mandali and westerners. But I tried to get off the
bus quickly and get a good seat in the hall.
So I came into the
hall, and Eruch was standing there with a few other people. This person
had got off the bus a little bit ahead of me, just a few steps. And
this person immediately approached Eruch and began to bow down at
Eruch's feet. Eruch had a standing order from Meher Baba to never allow
anyone to bow down to him. Before the bow could be achieved Eruch
quickly reached out and smacked the person on the forehead with the palm
of his hand in a blunt and forceful motion. The impact of the blow
knocked the person completely backwards and onto the floor and on their
It was very
shocking for me to see Eruch strike anyone. But Eruch was completely
unaffected by this, and he immediately turned away and continued his
conversation with the person he was talking with. Other people there
quickly grabbed this person and escorted the person out of the hall. It
was so obvious to me that there was no way that Eruch was going to allow
anyone to bow down to him.
There is an
amazing steely core in the Mandali that most people didn't see. Eruch
was willing to go to the extent of striking someone to prevent the
violation of Meher Baba's order. It was a revelation to me. At this
point in time Eruch was a healthy man but getting on in years. Still he
was able to strike this person with such force that he laid them out on
their back. This other person was not a slight person, but healthy and
athletic. He just decked him with one blow.
A lot of people talk about how sweet and intuitive the Mandali
were, but they don't mention how ready and willing they were to
sacrifice anything to maintain Baba's order. This person came in and
gave no prior warning. There was no thinking about this at all. Eruch's
response was instantaneous. He was prepared at any moment to react. He
had no animosity or anger, he didn't change his expression. He had no
connection to the incident and went on talking. There was no further
comment about it.
Alice Klein's Story
A Very Short Story
I was in Meherabad
and having a hard time in every possible way: healthwise, emotional,
social, and so on. Someone brought me to Eruch (I had been too shy to
really meet any of the Mandali; someone else, for instance, set up a
meeting for me with Mani).
How long this
little visit with Eruch was I don't remember, nor what transpired,
except for two things. One thing was that he was very affectionate and
put his arm around my shoulders, and it was a time when I needed some
And the second thing was that he made me stand up next to him and
say, "Avatar Meher Baba Ki Jai!" And when I did that, it wasn't loud and
convincing enough for him, so he made me repeat it, louder and louder,
until he was satisfied.
Dave Miotke's Story
I remember all the
wonderful stories in Mandali Hall at Meherazad. The light coming in the
window above Eruch as he sat on the floor facing Baba's chair, which was
across the room in the corner next to the doorway. The birds would be
singing, praising the stories being told about the Beloved of Beloveds.
Most of the time, Mani would be there too, adding to the tales of the
I remember holding the floor one day, telling about Mahler's Resurrection Symphony (#2),
how it was completed in 1894, and how the events on and around February
25th of that year inspired Mahler. "Auferstehen, ja auferstehen..."
(Rise, yes, rise...) Mahler being inspired to contribute musically in
the bringing back of the Avatar. Oh, dearest Rose... (the 4th movement).
Mahler conducted the Eroica of Beethoven on February 26th. Was
there a rehearsal on the 25th in the nearly empty cathedral in Vienna
in preparation for the next day's performance, a funeral service for the
great conductor Von Bulow? A short time before that, as Vienna learned
of Von Bulow's passing while vacationing on the Nile, Mahler was in
attendance at an earlier memorial service. There he heard a boy's choir
singing Klopstock's Resurrection Ode. He said that it was as if
he had been struck by lightning. "These are the times a composer waits
for..." He had spent six years working on his 2nd symphony and knew that
he needed that "something," that inspiration to finish the work. It
would be monumental, for chorus, vocal soloists and orchestra. It would
call to mind Beethoven's 9th, the Ode to Joy. How
could he dare to try and create something of that scope? Then the
"lightning strike." He went home and feverishly wrote and wrote,
completing the whole work by the end of spring, I believe. So when Baba
was being born, all of this western musical inspiration was happening,
calling, desperately calling "Oh Red Rose, mankind lies in deepest
need....." "Come, O Beloved."
I went on for
quite a while, an hour or so, bringing in Wagner and Cosima, Liszt,
Richard Strauss, etc. I described the form of each of the movements.
Most people think
of the overall plan of the work as leading to the return of Christ at
judgment day. He will then free all the souls, the graves will open up
and all will rise to heaven, etc. I see the work as asking "What are we
here for?" Are we here to merely live our lives with as many pleasant
experiences as we can? Are we here to fight each other, conflict after
conflict? Or are we here to seek the inner experience of realization
through love and service for the Beloved, in this age Avatar Meher Baba?
("O schmerz, du aldurchdringer...") Overcoming the all pervading pain
through love, active, living, breathing "Mastery in Servitude!" That's
it! O Baba, beautiful, lovely Beloved!
After I finished,
Eruch said that I should be a professor, telling stories like that. Of
course, these things come about, I feel, as gifts from the All-Knowing
One. You work hard to learn things, and you'll never learn enough.
Still, certain things impress you in such wonderful ways, and you
remember them, you embrace them, so to speak. These things are "wet,"
like the tears of joy that come from the heart's deepest places. It is
I remember a day
when we all were coming back into Mandali Hall after having tea. A
couple of people, who shall remain nameless, were kidding around, sort
of going overboard, shall we say. I sensed this as I waited for the
session to resume. All of a sudden, Eruch spoke up, saying something to
the effect, "Brothers, sisters, let us return to the proper atmosphere,
where we regard the Beloved as being in our midst." The worldly
kibitzing stopped immediately and we returned to the purpose of being
there in Baba's exquisite presence....
Thank you Baba.
Thank you Eruch, and all the Mandali. Thank you Beloved Baba, thank you,
thank you... Oh, God, how can we ever love you enough? You are All in
All, the One with Infinite Attributes. Beyond words. Thank you, thank
you, thank you...
Ten years ago, Eruch had just passed away. I had just finished reading the 20 volumes of Lord Meher.
Bal Natu had just sent me a wonderful letter, encouraging me to keep
singing for Baba. So, on September 8, 2001, three days before 9/11, I
went into Prairie Sun Studios in Cotati, California, and from 9A.M. to 9P.M., with a break for dinner, recorded the CD In Dust I Sing.
It was a great day. The first ghazal I recorded that morning was How Can We Live When You Have Gone Away?"
by Bhauji. The microphones weren't adjusted correctly, so it was too
"hot!" It couldn't be used. We only found that out later. The rest of
the ghazals went beautifully and can be heard to this day, available
through Sheriar Books, etc.
Rick Chapman Story
Eruch arrived, as usual,
in a jeep from Meherazad at about noon. Immediately he was surrounded
by eager pilgrims, each wanting a greeting, each savoring a long,
heart-filling embrace. Eruch began this Amartithi celebration as he
always did, making his way slowly, by dint of the interruptions, from
the jeep outside the upper Meherabad library to the back of the tin
shed, where he would settle in to continue to greet the constant stream
of Baba-lovers who were drawn to his "station" for the duration of the
The walk to the
tin shed would take just over an hour this day. As pilgrims arrived and
spotted Eruch, they raced to him, catching their first of what would be
many divinely significant embraces from him, for they would return after
taking darshan at the Samadhi, return again in the night, as Eruch told
stories about his Beloved deep into the morning hours. And they would
not leave Meherabad Hill for their homes without yet one more embrace.
At about four in
the increasingly chilly morning, after the crowd behind the shed had
dwindled to less than twenty, we headed for one of the impromptu tea
stalls at the east end of the Hill. Everyone was bleary-eyed, including
the fifteen-year-old kid serving the tea, but such tea has never been
enjoyed even by kings, for its company transformed it into a nectar of
comradeship in the Beloved's Love! This year I was too slow-Eruch bought
the round with rupees produced from one of the pockets in his famous
heavy woolen "New Life" coat. Everyone felt honored to have tea that the
Slave of the Masters of Masters had offered as an Amartithi treat.
Everyone had a million thoughts that could never fit into a single
thought bubble, however large.
Then we headed down the Hill, toward the tents at Lower Meherabad
and eventually to the Dhuni platform, where the Dhuni would be lit an
hour or so later by the runners from Meherazad. Special times? You tell
me. All I can say is that the Grace that makes it possible to enjoy His
Presence today was fully present then as well, in spades. AVATAR MEHER
BABA KI JAI!!!!!!
(copyright Rick Chapman 2011)
Dick Anthony's Story
Eruch and the Spiritual Value of Authentic Criticism
In 1981, Louise and I-and Steven within her pregnant
belly-spent nine weeks in India. During our stay, I met with Eruch
twelve times in his room, for an hour and a half or so, doing body work
to help him recover from chronic pain that had resulted from a stroke
five years earlier. During those times, I formed many of my most
personal impressions of him. One morning I noticed a small scrap of
paper pinned to the wall above his desk. It said: "Far more fortunate is
one who absorbs even one accurate criticism than one who has traversed
all the inner realms of spiritual experience." It was attributed to
Meera Bai, a Hindu female saint of the sixteenth century. (I knew that
Eruch had been reading a book about her, which he had recommended to
me.) "What's that for?" I asked. He shrugged."I just put it up to remind
me." he said. That short interchange has resonated in me for thirty
years and has played its part in my struggles to follow his example, as
best as I can.
Steve Essley's Story
Bicycling the road from
Meherazad back to Ahmednagar one evening in November 1974, I noticed
that the huts along the road had many decorative lights. In Mandali Hall
the next day a small group was chatting with Eruch, and I asked him
about the lights. He explained it was Divali, the Hindu Festival of
Lights, and he offered to tell a New Life event that happened during
In Madras, the men
still with Baba in the New Life were looking out for people who were
really poor but wouldn't beg. This was a great task set for the Mandali
by Baba. At a coconut milk stand, Baba told Eruch to listen to a nearby
conversation about a man who lost all his wealth. Eruch got the man's
address and they went about 75-100 miles by train to this man's town or
village. They arrived at dusk and Baba waited at the station while Eruch
went out to find the man's house.
A boy guided Eruch
to a very poor locality, but there were lights lit for Divali in the
street. Only one house did not have any lights. Inside was a young lady
praying to a life-size statue of Krishna and her sick father lying on
the floor because there was no furniture. She asked "What do you want?"
She spoke very good English. Eruch convinced her to let his "elder
brother" visit. Eruch went back to the station and returned with Baba in
Baba sat down and
washed and dried the man's feet. Then Baba bent down further and put his
forehead on the feet of the sick man. He put a large sum of money in an
envelope on the man's chest. Eruch said "Please accept this amount as a
gift from God and oblige us," as Baba ordered he do for all such
as Eruch was finishing the story he let out a piercing scream,
reenacting the young woman who started to wail and fell at Krishna's
feet. She said "Oh Lord, I never knew you were so compassionate, so kind
and merciful. No sooner do I implore you for help than within a few
minutes you send me the help." Baba was very happy.
This is still one of my favorite stories. For Eruch's full detailed version, see Tales of the New Life, p. 103-7
Ralph Brown's Story
a Baba Lover would come to India with a friend or family member who was
not a Baba Lover it would amaze me at how naturally and sincerely Eruch
would relate to the person. One such instance was when my father
visited India in the early '80s. (Unlike the Mandali, who would remember
not only the year but the month and often the day of any recollection,
I'm lucky if I get the decade right.)
My Dad was a
former Communist and an avowed atheist who had little patience for most
Baba Lovers, who he generally viewed as self indulgent wastrels who
turned a blind eye to social injustice. Eruch, as always, seemed
sincerely interested in him, chatting and parrying stories and
viewpoints without condescension or any attempt to "sell the program. "
One day my Dad
asked me if I was going on the walk with Eruch to Pimpalgaon village. I
was surprised, as I knew that Eruch hadn't done this walk in quite some
time. I was sure that Eruch was only doing it to provide some
entertainment for my Dad. I went along and, sure enough, Eruch walked
next to my Dad the whole time, pointing out interesting tidbits of
information about the flora and fauna, odd Indian customs, etc. A bunch
of Pilgrims trailed behind, no doubt wishing that Eruch would be telling
Baba stories and frustrated that he was devoting himself completely to
the old guy who wasn't even a Baba Lover. After the walk, my Dad said he
had found it very interesting, but never said anything about Eruch.
My Dad ended up
living with us the last few years of his life. During this time we were
having a small get-together with some Baba Lovers, one of whom asked my
Dad what he thought about Meher Baba. He said: "I'm an atheist. I don't
believe in God. But, if I did, I think he'd be a pretty good candidate.
But I've met plenty of these Baba Lovers. They don't live up to Meher
Baba's teachings... except Eruch."
Someone said: "Art, you got that one right."
Steve Kahle's Story
"You Are My True Friend"
The last time I
saw Eruch was in 1995 while on my last trip to India. At that point he
had been "lingering" for many years for our sakes and that was something
I was really thankful for. However, I knew he wanted to go home to Baba
but many of us were holding on to him. Because I didn't want to be one
of the ones holding him back I prepared myself to release him and say my
final goodbye. This happened on my last day at Meherazad as we pilgrims
were saying our goodbyes to the Mandali prior to boarding the bus back
to Meherabad. My turn with Eruch came and looking into his eyes I said,
"Goodbye, Eruch" while inwardly letting him go. Without me saying so,
Eruch knew exactly what my "goodbye" meant and immediately thanked me by
saying, "You are my true friend" and giving me a big hug!
When the Signposts Are Gone (2)
O Beloved, how will we find our way when all the signposts are gone?
When I survey the landscape now, I find no shade trees out on the lawn.
We were under their protection, taking our cues from their perfect lives;
They were the lampposts in the darkness, Your true reflection in the night.
They were Your moons, reflecting Your sunlight upon our dark
They were Your evidence-God's Avataric banner quietly unfurled.
They were our most intimate friends, teaching us what friendship
They were our dearest family, closer than parents and siblings have been.
How do You expect us to proceed in the vacuum of their absence?
Whom can we now embrace, in the totality of Your Great Silence?
The time has arrived, it seems, for the Master's children to become men
And women-mature adults in His Love-for now is no longer then.
Time has come to find the Beloved where we could not find Him before;
Coming of age means diving deeper to be with the One we adore.
Rick Chapman, Stealing Hafiz, page 69
(copyright Rick Chapman, 2010, White Horse Publishing Company)
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